It’s been a while since I have published a blog post. I guess my mind has been else where. New project, new environment, new schedule, new stages that my daughter is going through. I have had a little too much change over the past year, and I am just now catching up. I am finally taking a deep breath in, and sighing with relief that my internal, mini-rough patch in my life is finally over, and I can reflect and give myself a pat on back because I made it. My new chapter is here and I have no clue where it is going. You know, it is kind of funny because when I was on ‘project misery’ I felt like there was no end, and thought that chapter would never end because I was trying so hard to “fix” that situation ha! Now, I am much more relaxed and I have no clue where this is going – and I am not worried because I am cruising through this chapter. I am taking it easy, and taking some time for much needed repair.
It’s been a while since I’ve seen friends (not the show, real ones). I guess everyone is so busy drinking tea, looking at ugly paintings, critiquing restaurants, and wandering around tiny Washington, DC. You know, people with lives. Plus, if it is not planned ahead of time, I’m not going. I just don’t do last minute plans – I can’t at this point in my life. So, don’t invite me to something with a 20 minute notice because more than likely I am in sweat pants with my hair in the same bun from yesterday. Speaking of plans, do people really plan play dates? Like, is this really a thing? Before I had a kid, I thought play dates sounded cute, but now that I am a mom, it’s the last thing I want to do. No reason why. Well, maybe I just don’t have a good reason other than the fact that there are some moms I just don’t want to be around on my day off.
It’s been a while since I’ve did a lot of things that I used to do – and that’s fine. You see, when you become a mom, there will be a lot of things that you used to do like go out whenever you feel like it, easily catch an Uber without a car seat, eat in kid-unfriendly restaurants, open a wallet with a lot more cash in it… just the simple things really. However, I have never looked back and felt sad because I am experiencing a wonderful new chapter. No one wants to be stuck in an old chapter, reading it over an over again, doing the same thing. It gets old. So, I move on.
It’s been a while since I’ve published a pointless post like this where I just jot down my thoughts to try to make sense of them all. It was more of a way to show to my readers, and myself, that I haven’t given up on this blog. In fact, just typing on my phone (of all places, ew) has been a great reminder of why I even started. I started because I have been writing for a while, I like to write, and it is something worth practicing.
I will probably share some more random thoughts soon. My brain is full of them. Thanks for reading.